10 Reasons Why I Do Not Want to Get Married to You

This is for the person who broke my heart and whom I trusted so much.

It's been 10 years now and we already have our own bloodline, our son. You asked me once more tie the knot with you but I declined your offer because you know the reason why but you failed to remember it. It seems like those were just nothing for you. It seems like you were just playing your part fooling me. Those were very painful but I did not show what I truly felt from those things you did to me.

For the first 9 years, everything was fine and I even imagined how life I would have if we got married and I thought I would be the happiest woman in the entire universe. When I got pregnant (which I carried Frankie for the entire nine months), I kept into my mind that we would live our own life in your place where I expected we would start a new life with our child.... I was very very wrong when
that moment of deliberate decision came. You failed to prove that you were the right choice.

And you asked me once more, and I declined but the beast in you still showed and you said, "I could see death in the future" and I know what it really means. You know the reasons why and if still you don't, please read these:

(1) More promises but no actions. You keep making promises, but like they said, promises are meant to be broken. Remember when you told me you would never ever hurt me? Well, you just did MANY TIMES.

(2) LIES. ALL LIES. Where were you when I called you on the phone and you didn't answer or you told me you went asleep? And then suddenly a friend of mine saw you in the middle of the night or at the wee hours with your friends or doing monkey business.

(3) Left alone with newborn. You know how hard it is for a new mother taking care of a newborn. but I believe you just don't care. You always left me alone in the house with the baby. I did things at the same time and you just would't believe it if you saw me. But, you just didn't care.

(4) Insulting me and looking back. Remember I told you that one big mistake would be kept repeating for a certain issue and it did. Even until now, you look at me with my past. Didn't you even think of how I reformed just for you? Didn't you even think of your mistakes that keep on repeating all over again from the day we met until the time I became cold to you? Did you even change for me and now for your child? Did you? THINK.

(5) Disrespecting my family. I do believe that if you truly love a person, you will love the ones she loves and respects the most. Did you even respect my parents? When I didn't do such, please do keep in mind that I respected your family from the very beginning. However, I just couldn't stand how they looked at me since then and insulted me like I am not a human. And I am sorry, feelings have burst out and I no longer respect your family. But take note that you were forgiven many times here and we did nothing wrong with you but I just couldn't understand, you did things that my family wouldn't like and when they got made, it seems like you inverted the situations.

(6) Your vices are much more important. How many times I have forgiven you about the things were your vices are involved? How many chances I gave to you? Did you even contemplate on it?

(7) Stealing my child without my approval. Have you and your mother thought of how painful it would be for a mother who carried her child for nine months and then just lost it all of a sudden? He was just five months old and I trusted you so much and I trusted your mother. But then again, it was then your mother's idea to steal the child without my permission. Your mother even assured me that she would do everything to bring back my son but then it was her idea, she was the mastermind of all. Then when and my baby arrived in a different island, your mother told me that I would never forget, "They are here now. Do not worry." And the following days, she hung up on me like I wasn't the mother of the baby she stole from me. I couldn't even describe how painful it was for me and my family and even until now when I see you and your mother, I just couldn't say it because I know you would always have your own leg to stand on (figuratively) just to prove that you were not wrong.

(8) Saying I have an affair with other guy. Every time I just do not want to attach to you or just a while ago I declined your offer, you then told me, "yeah I know you do not want to because you wanted to date with someone else and go ahead, go with the grandfather." I know what you meant. Do you think I would really marry you with this the next time you mentioned it?

(9) Using blackmailing thing'y' that you think would scare me. As far as I know, when you love a person and the person does not have feelings anymore, you would set her free to find someone that would love her without making her cry nor hurting her feelings. But whenever I feel so disappointed, and I didn't like what you did, you would always tell me, "I will put a bullet in your head" or simply put, 'you will kill me' so I wouldn't get along with other guys. That's NOT love. It's OBSESSION.

(10) I HATE YOU NOW. With all these things, I am done. I have forgiven you many times but you still failed to change what I think about you. And I know when I say these three words, you would say, "I will put a bullet in your head" and do number #4, #8, and #9 AGAIN..

I hope with this, you will know why I do not want to get married to you.